been thinking alot these days. this year perhaps. much more than my sec1-4 years combined. that was just a puny playground with my happiest memories. right now, things arent so easy, or perhaps its me who've realised more.

i dont really write in my journal anymore. reasons being lack of time/laziness/typing's easier than writing.. still i dont wish to mention too much here.

firstly, my bro's friend's mom passed away. and he's only a p6 boy. ive been brooding over it for days. i know the details and it really affects me. the thing is, i dont really know him, but whenever death's the issue, it occupies my mind in a way nothing else can. i dream of my close kins dying even. on a very regular basis. and get so afraid. sometimes i think im psycho.

treasure the impt people in your life. at all times. god has blessed me in such simple but plentiful ways, i must never forget.

and the h3 issue again. yep, cant deny i should have studied harder.

but @#$%^&*&$ (insert lots of angry words) this damn screwed school should not doubt me. im not trying to be overconfident or what, but im sure that after i gave it a shot, ill do well really. ive never flunked major exams. its a slow momentum to the final a levels. think rj accepts h3 based on olevels. now thats tons smarter. im so sure that when i graduate from college ill give no credit to this place. promise me a bright future, even without the h3, for i want to achieve.

theres so,so much more.

but i wouldnt share here.

latest pleasing hpnings: i spent the day with mommy dearest ((: talked alot after the appointment and had a good lunch at cartel.

met weishan with weixian,junming last sunday. then we plucked eyebrows at orchard! ouchOUCH!

and shopping with him. i know he dislikes it but hes really compromising to always come along. not that sweet though, he times how long i spend in each shop, and gives a time limit. sheesh =/